Creator-critic dog-fight. With added unemployment!

SCENE: ABOUT TO WRITE A POST

Tug of war. By pippalou

Tug of war. By pippalou.

VOICES PIPE UP IN MY HEAD.

Critic:                     Oh, hey dawg. What you up to?

Creator:               Writing.

Critic:                     You’re what? Writing what, exactly?

Creator:               Some things for my blog. Not sure yet, my thoughts and that.

Critic:                     So, let me get this straight. You’re unemployed – well, okay, ‘freelance’, but who knows what that means – and you’re choosing to sit in your room and write instead of get out there and get a job? Have I forgotten to remind you of your unemployment today – when blogging seems particularly ludicrous!

Creator:               Career wisdom says otherwise. Blogging during unemployment helped Brian John Spencer and blogging helped Krishnan Nair stand out and land a writing role. Also, blogging on a niche topic protects against unemployment, and this blog, featured in magazines, is about how to be jobless, as a journalist.

Critic:                     Oh, yes, and that’s worked out wonderfully for you. Anyway, have you actually tried anything to get a job?

Creator:               I’ve applied to a couple of hundred jobs online so far…

Critic:                     Online! You’re only applying online?

Creator:               That is actually how I secured several first, and second, job interviews, and tests, and as a result I was almost offered perfect match, professional, graduate jobs as a journalist, online community manager, bid writer, copywriter, researcher, marketing assistant…

Critic:                     But you didn’t get the job offers, did you?

Creator:               Meanwhile, I network in the arts and journalism at events, and I’m also starting to do things in the London poetry scene…

Critic:                     Unpaid work, blogging, and now you want to do poetry? So, I expect it would be stupid to ask you when you plan on getting a mortgage, plan for a wedding, or even think about a car?

Creator:               I have proofreading and transcription work to keep me afloat and I’ve applied for temping, retail and cafe work. I’ve been unlucky, but I’m trying.

Critic:                    And you’re still wasting time on that blog of yours.

Creator:               I like writing about the area I’d ideally, eventually, like to work in, or know about, or freelance for. I’m building an expertise, exploring what I like, and learning about people and art. I’m really interested in creative and artistic industries and the online world, and if I have a bit of time, I could really write good quality content and improve my writing and, while that takes a lot of time, I think businesses might like to employ me because I would be able to do it quicker or better than they can without me. Aside from that, I like doing it and seeing the results. If we don’t spend time on the things we love, what’s the point of life?

Critic:                     But look at you! You’re all serious – you call that doing something you love? When are you going to be happy? There’s no guarantee any of this is worth it, is there? I don’t think it’s worth it.

Creator:               I think it is. But does the burden of proof lie with me? Is it my job to ponder the worth of what I do, or just do it?

I’ve just finished a post.

Action wins.